Cermit Talks

I think the hardest thing about being an adult is finding purpose in life. Like I feel like everyone you ask has a slightly different opinion on what makes you successful or good at being alive. That seems weird that you have to justify being good at life. Why? Can't people just enjoy themselves and not have to worry about the fact that their life isn't others?  For the past few years since I turned 18, I have been working on my mental health. I felt for a while that it has gotten really good and I felt very successful and good. But no matter who I talked to nothing I ever do seems to be enough. There's always more money to make, there's always a better place to live, there are always pounds to lose, there's always something. Why? I don't get it. I can be happier than 80% of the people in the world but if I don't have a job I'm worthless to that same 80%. Why is it that we justify our lives on crazy big steps? People constantly judge me because I still l

This year is another special year. I have had this blog for a few years now and I wrote a few times about how turning 18 was a big thing for me. And I haven't really talked about it since then.  As someone who has had depression and anxiety for longer than I can remember the future, or anything past 18, seems like something that was too far for me to even consider thinking about. I thought id be dead before then. It is kind of like owning a house, it's something that is so far in the future it's completely out of your reach. So turning 18 was hard for me to process, honestly, I don't think I ever did. I was in a bad place in my 18th year of life. And I didn't realize till recently how hard these last few years have been mentally for me. I have kind of just brushed off being an adult. Like things are different for sure but it seemed like the end goal. And now 3 years later I am 2 weeks away from turning 21. It doesn't seem real. I have been dissociating so much t